Something that people struggling with mental illnesses should read.

No fancy colors for today, I'm in an odd place right now.

I've been reflecting on how I treat myself as of late, and I'm shocked to report that I've wanted to write this a long time ago, but haven't ever gotten the will to do it. As someone who struggles with depression and a few others, I often put myself down to the point of tears, and I think that's how you're supposed to talk to yourself. But, the thing is that you shouldn't. You're struggling with depression, bipolar, PTSD, or the unending game with whatever your poison is, and you don't have the time or energy for that shit. I know just how hard it is to think in a positive manner in a world colored grey and black, but I've put myself on notice from here on out. Even if it's not thinking a positive thought, but thinking one less negative thought, give your battered psyche a break, because in the end, the only person who can change your life is you. You are the only one with the power to change that ceaseless discharge (Dark Souls boss!) of hatred. I've started by saying "Do you really have the energy for this right now?", or "Maybe never jerk, I have games to play." I've really been focusing that I actually do something besides lay in bed all day, wanting to die. I was actually there a few days ago, and it opened my eyes that simply getting out of bed to walk around is a herculean feat. That day I couldn't eat, couldn't cry, couldn't do anything but stare blankly at the wall. The day seemed to drag on, but I was rendered helpless to my own mind, and that sucked so much. That dragged me back to the days when I was waiting for a car to hit me, waiting for something horrible to happen, and that sucked. So, without getting too into my personal battle, I just wanted to say give yourself a bit of a break. Surfing the net is better than laying in bed. Walking around is better than laying in bed. Treat yourself with the dignity and respect you treat other people with, and just give it a rest. Please, do it for yourself, because you deserve that, and so much more.

Better late than never.

Today will be *gold*

I recently mentioned to everyone that I sang, so it's only reasonable that I share my voice with you guys! Sorry it took so long, I was too busy being a snark bag. (Get it?)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=loUjgjnAO0g

http://www.reddit.com/r/DarkSouls2/comments/2mtlqy/milfanito/

https://soundcloud.com/makosaurusrex